Decisions
He just sat there wondering what he was going to do the next day, and the next, and the days following after. Darren hated making decisions, and avoided coming into conflict with a choice; almost at all costs. For someone who to so many seemed to be the very epitome of having his life together, Darren would rather defer to another or leave it all up to chance if it meant that he wasn’t the one who would be making the decision.
Indecisiveness, however, can only move a person but so far. Sure, there might be some success in a life lived without making solid decisions, but these successes can only be short lived, like lightening in a storm; a flash of powerful brilliance. It’s only a flash though, a temporary spark. For anything lasting, any long term constructive energy to be maintained there must be planning; and planning by nature requires making decisions. And Darren hated making decisions.
There on the park bench, overlooking the lake, Darren found it hard to settle on what to invest his time and energy into. The pressure of the closing day and the perceived expectations the world lingered heavy on his mind. Of what consequence were his actions in the lives of others? Would the sacrifices required in the making of a decision be worth the return on such an investment? Would the value of the accomplishment of a decided goal outweigh what he would give up to pursue that goal?
The sun was setting into the trees surrounding the lake, changing them from comforting greens to dark silhouettes behind a golden sky. Each moment as the sun moved toward and then into the horizon seemed to Darren as a clock counting down to a moment where either a decision is made or all hope for success is lost.
Taking a deep breath, Darren pushed back the imposing deadline in his mind to another day. Perhaps that day would be tomorrow, or the next, or a day that follows after. What he knew was that he would again confront this decision again, and as the sun vanished into the western horizon and sky turned dark, all Darren could think of what how much he hated making decisions.
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